This is the fourth and final part of 'MY COMPLAINT REVISED 30th JULY, 2022'. Again, as with the previous three parts, this part is edited with some extracts removed so as to make the post shorter. The original complaint document is quite extensive and can be published in full if there is sufficient interest from the readers.

The following is actually labelled 'PART THREE', it being the third part of the original complaint and includes a list of 31 'THINGS THAT I WOULD LIKE TO HAPPEN'. Attached to the third part of the original complaint were three letters that had been written to CAMHS General Manager, Wanda Reynolds. My 'suicide note' has already been published in an earlier blog post. I have chosen to include just one of the two remaining letters here. It begins after the line,

...'And this is an email sent to you more recently on Sat 9^th July...'

I was led to believe that my complaint was going to be addressed as a joint investigation, shared between Wanda Reynolds from the Sussex Partnership NHS Foundation Trust and Southern Health NHS Foundation Trust.

'PART THREE

THE THINGS THAT I WOULD LIKE TO HAPPEN

1)      Revisit the questions 1 to 31 posed in my original complaint and give proper answers where asked.

2)      Answer all other questions asked throughout this document, including the 6 questions asked in section ‘RECORDS’.

3)      Recognise the systemic failing by Camhs to meet the needs of my daughter, Meg, and myself as a parent in a timely manner. Explain why it was that we had to wait for almost two years to be seen by Camhs.

4)      Restorative justice. Allow me the opportunity to face all those who attended the meeting of ‘senior staff and clinical leads’, including yourself and Dr Natalie Roberts. I want to be ‘seen’ as a real person, psychologically damaged by your collective decision and I want to see and hear your real, human response to my pain, humiliation and distress.

5)      I want written apologies from Camhs for their lies, deception, instruction to emotionally manipulate, for monitoring and surveilling me and for framing me as a risk to staff, for framing me as a risk to my daughter and for the wilful disregard for my psychological wellbeing.

6)      I want you, Wanda, to put into writing the exact words you spoke to me during my meeting with you and Vicky Long on 20^th May 2022 that ‘We ( Camhs ) have damaged you.’

7)      I want help from Camhs to understand why and how I was given the wrong type of therapy at Camhs and why Sally’s immediate supervisor did not intervene earlier. I want to be thoroughly involved and to be appraised regularly at all stages of the further investigations that you reference in your answer to Question 2 of your response ie ‘I am deeply sorry this opened up areas of your vulnerability and has left you felling exposed and raw. We are further investigating how this happened, ‘

8)      I want my meeting with Sally reinstated.

9)      I want Sally to have the opportunity to decide for herself whether she wants to meet me socially outside of the Camhs therapeutic relationship or not. She has the right to act and behave in accordance with her own free will, to self-govern and make choices free of fear or favour. I want to make arrangements with you to decide on the best way to put this to Sally so that she does not feel coerced by either Camhs or myself or feel that her professional career might be detrimentally affected either way.

10) I want full, unredacted disclosure of details of all actions taken by Camhs staff to communicate to the police and so misrepresent me as ‘fixated’, ‘obsessed’ or as a ‘stalker’ and to make amends by redacting any accusations by writing to the police.

Where are the records related to sharing concerns to the police? There are multiple references throughout my medical records suggesting that staff contact police to alert them to my perceived risk to staff. The final entry under ‘Professionals Meeting Wednesday 9^th February 2022’ states ‘SM to discuss with senior management re; police involvement. Flagging concerns just in case future call needs to be made to police. Factual evidence we have of concern being shared with police.’ I ABSOLUTELY WANT TO KNOW EVERYTHING THAT WAS DISCUSSED WITH SENIOR MANAGEMENT RE POLICE INVOLVEMENT and what happened if and when FACTUAL EVIDENCE WE HAVE OF CONCERN BEING SHARED WITH POLICE.

11) I am still waiting for the minutes of the ‘extensive meeting of leadership staff and clinical leads’ that met early in January 2022 to discuss my 12 page letter to Sally. Please disclose them to me and answer the questions outlined in ‘RECORDS  ‘’Extensive meeting 12 page letter to Sally January 2022’’ ‘.

12) I want copies of this complaint document shared, unaltered, with ALL the attendees of the ‘extensive meeting of leadership staff and clinical leads’ that took place early January 2022 including Dr Natalie Roberts and Sally herself.

13) I want a guarantee that working practice around record keeping is improved in line with my comments included in the section above entitled ‘RECORDS’.

14) There are 5 to 6 lines of redacted copy in my medical records disclosed by Southern Health relating to a discussion between Sally Mungall of Camhs and Kirsty Henry, senior nurse practitioner dated 18^th February 2022 14;00 taht I want unredacted. The 5 to 6 lines come after ‘...later led to a referral to CMHT.’

15) I want a formal, written apology from the Bridge Centre for the insinuations of ‘fixation’ and ‘obsession’ and for the insinuations of ‘stalking’.

16) I want a formal, written apology from Ian Whaites for his insinuation of ‘stalking’ and for attempting to coerce Sally Mungall into adopting a mindset of fear that I was a risk to her and not accepting her repeated assertions that she felt that she was not at risk from me.

17) I want a formal written apology from Ian Whaites for his wrongful claim made on 6^th April 2022 16;39 ‘With the Joiner model of suicidality in mind, there’s no evidence of thwarted belongingness or perceived burdensomeness’. I was, and still am, socially isolated, feel unaccepted by others, divorced, have few friends, all of whom I keep at arms length and a pervasive sense of not belonging and being abandoned. All of these observations are concordant with ‘thwarted belongingness’. I have absolutely no fear of death. Death, even now, is my desired objective made all the more acceptable to me following my first suicide attempt last April. Ian Whaites was and remains ignorant to who I am

18) I want a mental health assessment to formally determine whether I am, as I believe, suffering from complex ptsd.

19) I want a mental health assessment to formally determine whether I am suffering from a personality disorder, most probably Borderline Personality Disorder.

20) I want to be tested for autism and want a referral made by a clinician.

21) I want any positive diagnosis of such mental health assessments to inform appropriate therapy. If I am diagnosed positive as suffering from complex ptsd I want to be offered a range of treatment options including trauma-focused cognitive behavioural therapy and or eye movement desensitisation and reprocessing ( EMDR ) both of which are recognised as treatment options by the NHS. If I am diagnosed as suffering from the personality disorder BPD I want to be offered Dialectical Behaviour Therapy ( DBT ) which is also recognised by the NHS as the best treatment option. I want the Bridge Centre to deliver treatment immediately or to secure provision of treatment immediately with a secondary health body.

22) I want a written apology from Sean Dale Malloy for his unprofessional and unethical decision to divulge details of the decision made to ‘cut me off’ from Sally and to acknowledge the psychological distress this placed me under.

23) I want you to properly account for the all the Risk assessments that wrongly assessed the Risk to myself as LOW, especially in context to my attempt to take my own life on April 27^th 2022. And to properly assess the CURRENT Risk to myself as HIGH.

24) I want a guarantee of a commitment to work more efficiently and collaboratively with each other and additional healthcare providers especially with social services.

25) I want you to acknowledge the failings of both Camhs and the Bridge Centre in not offering me carers support or signposting to carers services. I also want you to acknowledge that failing to support me as main carer to my daughter exacerbated my distress and contributed towards my suicidal ideation.

26) I want a comprehensive timetable of care provision agreed to and strictly adhered to going forward. You need to let both Meg and myself know what to expect and when to expect it. I want you to work cohesively and efficiently with ALL concerned with Meg’s health provision including Meg’s social worker, Phoebe Evans. I expect a coordinated approach that takes into account a) medication regime, b) regular  psychiatric intervention and weekly psychotherapy sessions, c) regular home visits by a carer and d) social service provision to help assist Meg into ‘supported living’ accommodation.

I want all of the above acted on promptly.

SUMMARY

I am disappointed that I had to wait two months for your response to my formal complaint. I am deeply disappointed because your response lacks substance and does not address the entirety of my original 23 page complaint document

The disclosure of my medical records following my Access to Records requests has only added to my list of grievances and added to my extreme distress.

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I have been driven to one attempted suicide attempt and left unattended while I make plans for a second suicide attempt.

My work with BCS does NOT absolve the Bridge Centre of its obligation to me. I want to be offered a mental health assessment to screen for c-ptsd and BPD and to be properly diagnosed. I want all available options for treatment opened to me including DBT in accordance with MY RIGHTS as set out in the NHS CONSTITUTION.

Finally I would like you to read the following emails. I don’t think anyone at Camhs or the Bridge Centre fully appreciate the upset, distress, abject humiliation caused or the very real psychological damage done to me over the last ten months. I have sent you many such emails, Wanda, especially since receiving my disclosed medical records. I have also sent Sally heartfelt emails that have documented my pain and heartbreak and the suicide-inducing pain of betrayal and abandonment that she has not or has not been allowed to respond to. I attach a few them here for all eyes, especially those who were in attendance at that ‘extensive meeting of leadership staff and clinical leads’ and made that reprehensible decision. And, for those that are in doubt as to whether that decision was taken with my best interest in mind, and also for those at the Bridge Centre, especially Ian Whaites, who downgraded my Risk to myself, I also attach my suicide note sent to you last April.

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And this is an email sent to you more recently on Sat 9^th July. I want those that attended the ‘extensive meeting of leadership staff and clinical leads’ at Camhs sometime early January 2022 to read this.  NOTE   At time of writing this I have still not received the promised ‘minutes’ from that meeting . I was informed that they would be sent to me as soon as Sally Mungall had checked for accuracy when she returned from AL on the 11^th July.

‘OK Wanda. Those were the last of my questions.

Your answers to those questions are not helpful at all, especially the revelation that Dr Roberts played a role in denying me that meeting with Sally on the 3^rd February. I eagerly await the disclosure of the minutes to that ‘extensive meeting’ next week so I can get a better idea of the rationale behind the group’s decision. I really cannot reconcile the fact that a professional as qualified and as experienced as Dr Roberts could find herself in agreement with such a bad decision. The damage done to me by that single decision is grotesque, permanent and irreparable. The pain I feel never subsides. You were all so very wrong about me. I never got angry, not with anyone. Nobody was at risk. I internalised ALL the negative feelings, absorbed all the disappointments and suffered the accusations and slurs in incredulous isolation. I was as polite and considerate as I was patient. I never sought to damage anything or anyone apart from myself. I never caused a fuss or bother. It was you, Wanda, along with all of those who attended that meeting that treated me like I was a monster, like something dirty and unclean that needed disinfecting. The really sad thing is that I think that Sally herself was persuaded to think I was a monster. Staff at the Bridge Centre perpetuated the idea, cajoled her and brow beat her into believing I was somehow dangerous. It’s evidenced in my medical records. It’s really all quite disgusting. Even during a mental health assessment I was being prodded and poked for an emotional reaction so that those behind the scenes could assess my liability in relation to Sally and her safety; when I should have been assessed for my own sake there were other agendas taking priority over mine. You have all done a really astounding job of diminishing me, making me feel worse about myself than I already felt. I was already entrenched with overwhelming self-loathing and self-disgust. You just added to that. And what did I do that was so wrong? I fell in love with somebody. The most simple yet pure, genuinely innocent and unashamedly romantic love. You and others at the Bridge Centre cynically mislabelled my tenacity as ‘fixation’, my passion as ‘obsession’ and my natural curiosity as ‘stalking’. I laid down my heart and you all took turns tramping over it with your jackbooted indifference. I’ll always Love Sally but I’ll always feel pain. I never even got to say goodbye to her. There was no closure. Just pain. I will never get over this. Never. I’m still trying to be the better person, trying hard to let go of bitterness, trying not to feel aggrieved, trying so very hard to move on but a huge part of me needs for you to know, all of you who were part of that dreadful decision to know, just how damaged I am and just how wretched I feel and just how broken I’ve become. So, no, your answers to my questions are not helpful. And no, I don’t expect any more answers from you Wanda. I’ll just have to sit on my hands and wait like I’ve always waited.’

So, in summary,

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It isn’t enough for me just to hear your apologies, Wanda. Hearing you say ‘sorry’ will not mend the damage done to me no matter how many times you say it. Your message to me is essentially summed up by your words, ‘I recognise how difficult the message I am relaying is to hear and I acknowledge that it might be felt that I am repeating myself. ’You want ‘sorry’ to cover your liability but ‘sorry’ doesn’t cut it. Camhs failed me and YOU continue to fail me, Wanda, as does Vicky and the Bridge Centre. YOU and your leadership and clinical lead cohorts who convened on that fateful day last January have so far not been held to account. That meeting is still shrouded in secrecy while the rationale behind your collective decision remains a mystery. Your explanations to date do not hold water and the six months that followed that decision are testament to the utter foolishness of that decision; I behaved and continue to behave with absolute integrity. The consensus of that group was to label me as psychologically abnormal, a threat to staff and a liability to be disposed of or, temporarily, brushed under a carpet. You should all have done due diligence and made a deep forensic enquiry then and there to determine the true nature of the ‘parent work’ carried out with Sally. You were not informed until you printed Sally’s ‘therapy session notes’ and read them for yourself on the 20^th May 2022. You were all, instead, overcome by a kind of hysteria and I was monstrous in your eyes. It was a psychological contagion that infected those at the Bridge Centre and taken up by some there with the zeal of a Witchfinder General. You should have recognised the very real damage done and my pain and suffering and offered remedy as is your duty as healthcare providers but you chose, instead, to inform the police. It all amounts to clinical malpractice and a hideous injustice.         

You still have a chance to do the right thing. All of you still have this one last chance to do the right thing and stand in front of me with humility and contrition and solemnly promise to meet the expectations laid out in this revised complaint document.

Yours sincerely,

Mark Stock

30^th July 2022